


He’s bi/pansexual, by the way, which Merit already knows. “If you don’t think you’re gay, you’re sexually confused.” You aren’t gay.” “Does being gay make you the gay authority on who can or can’t tell gay jokes?” “I’m not gay, either,” he says. It’s making you sentimental.” He glances back at me and narrows his eyes. “It’s probably the whole gay thing you’re experimenting with. “You open your legs to him any time he wants it.” “Maybe he couldn’t finish with me because he prefers dick. And it’s straight from the mouth of our narrator who we are supposed to feel sympathy for! How do you like someone who says this when outing someone as bisexual: I also just don’t understand why no one on the editing team is catching the homophobia, biphobia, ableism and slut-shaming in here. It’s impossible to like or even care about anyone. (view spoiler) Their father, too, shrugs off his infidelity with: “You think I’m not allowed to make mistakes?” (view spoiler) A lot of Merit’s actions are forgiven by us finding out that it wasn’t really true. It feels like the entire Voss family spend this book being assholes and it is all wrapped up and forgiven without any consequences. You know, there’s a difference between creating well-rounded, complex and unlikeable characters, and just creating characters who get away with being obnoxious and selfish. And worse than that - shortly after, Honor moves Sagan into the Voss household. To make matters worse, she can’t stop thinking about him. She reciprocates, but soon realises she has been mistaken for her twin and that she has just kissed Honor’s boyfriend. One day, a hot dude called Sagan kisses Merit unexpectedly. Merit retreats further and further into herself as she feels ever more estranged from her siblings - especially older brother, Utah, and twin sister, Honor. Said sick mother lives downstairs in the basement. They now live upstairs in a renovated church with their father and stepmother, after their father cheated on their sick mother. The book centers on Merit Voss and her family. I really do like that she’s moving more towards Contemporary and darker subjects - as with It Ends with Us - but this messy book took on mental illness, sexuality, suicide, abuse, even the Syrian refugee crisis, AND a romance.

He could probably open his mouth and call me an asshole again and I’d still want to kiss the lips the insult came from.ĬoHo really missed the mark with this one, in my opinion.
